I Feel Sick.

I skipped school today.
I woke up sweating and I couldnt hear myself think over the rain pounding on the roof.
I like days when I feel like i can dissappear.
People text my phone, but I pretend I'm gone.
I never want to go to school again.
I want to go back to virginia and hide.
I want my old friends to understand I never hated them,
and that the only reason im not talking to them,
is because i honestly dont know what to say.
I still love you so much,
but i know you are all fine without me.
Sometimes i think i purposely push them all away,
because when i dont have them anymore, i feel sick.
and when i feel sick, it makes not eating easier.