Saturday 24 December 2011

Hold Me...

         I'm hurt all the time.
I don't want to cry for the way I feel inside.
I just want someone to hold me...
I'm alone in the dark, please try to find me.
If no one cares, I don't see a point to go on.
Anyone find me! Anyone care!
I'm sorry, I just don't want to be alone anymore.
I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.
No one cares and yet I'm always the sorry one.
Someone find me! I'm scared.
Please hold me until it all ends.
Just hold me that’s all I want.
I don't want to be alone in the dark.
Just hold me as I start to disappear from the light.
Just hold me as I start to cry.
Just hold me so I wont be alone inside.
Just hold me so I don't do something wrong.
Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light....

Saturday 23 April 2011

I Feel Sick.


I skipped school today.
I woke up sweating and I couldnt hear myself think over the rain pounding on the roof.
I like days when I feel like i can dissappear.
People text my phone, but I pretend I'm gone.
I never want to go to school again.
I want to go back to virginia and hide.
I want my old friends to understand I never hated them,
and that the only reason im not talking to them,
is because i honestly dont know what to say.
I still love you so much,
but i know you are all fine without me.
Sometimes i think i purposely push them all away,
because when i dont have them anymore, i feel sick.
and when i feel sick, it makes not eating easier.

TeaRs..


I was left walking alone as the rain pours down onto me. I hid my tears behind a smile as I stood alone at your doorsteps. Every step I took, a tear starts rolling down. I never thought that I would be worthless for you.


My ThouGht :


      I don’t ever think I could love you more than I do today, but then tomorrow comes and I find that I love you even more.

Alone aGain


         I wish you loved me as much as I do even for a one day.
Undoubtedly, I was to be the happiest creature in this world.
I did not think before that I would fall in love with you and need you so much to be always there with me.
I did not think that you would be the one to turn my life upside down.
I still remember the enjoyable time that we spent together.
I still remember your sweet smile and your angelic face.
I still see you in my dreams and I still long for you all the time.
You do not know how much I feel happy every time I see you or talk to you.
I just feel as if you are an angel coming from heaven and I am the only lucky person to meet you.
Yet, you always go so fast and leave me behind alone again.

Monday 18 April 2011

Cutenes




         Your smile makes me smile.

         Thinking of you melts away all my worries because I know that I’ll always love you and you will love me and that makes me incredibly
happy.

         This love tonight’s invincible.

Kr!shna Golla..






My Thought...

That’s a strange way to say… I LOVE YOU!
But I want to tell everybody that I want you by my side for the rest of my days.

God Gift




       God gave me a wonderful gift…
and it was you…
you, who cares and love me so deeply… 

        Distance may separate us but my love for you will stay
you’ll be in my heart forever
god knows how much i truly love you so
lets be strong and contented so we can defeat all the temptations around us.

         i’ll hug you tight when we meet again
i love you much much much more more more my cookie

Things I hate About You



1. Being Grumpy
2. Moody
3. Secretive
4. Forgetful
5. Not keeping promises
6. Weak
7. Boastful
8. Good looking
9. Immature
10.Unsatisfied
11. Making me Fall… Endlessly and Hopelessly…
So much i wanna say…

         So much i went though all because i love you
I wanted as much to forget and turn back time when i was living simply without your presence
Without all the complications that you brought to my life.
Without all the lies…
But then, every time I am with you.
Despite all the lies…
Despite all the hurt…
Despite all the Ingratitude…
Despite all the deceit you thought i believed…
Despite all the hate i felt and went through with…
No matter how an UNGRATEFUL SCHEMING LYING BASTARD you are…
My happiest moments still…
Are the moments i happily spent with you…
And i cant stay Mad to the only person who can make me really Happy… Effortlessly… No matter hoe stupidly In love I am… I cant Find enough strength to Drop or leave you…

Saturday 16 April 2011

I Love U & Gud Bye


         
           I can’t grasp any exact words to say, my grief left devastating state of mind, trying to set myselt to its precise spot…i feel impaired and totally ruined, i pause any movement in my life temporarily cease to think how u ended my thrill and my meaningful life.

           I wake up filled thoughts of you. Your image and the exciting evening which yesterday have left my senses in turmoil. What a strange effect you have on my heart! My inner life aches with sorrow it was last night that i fully realized how hard to be deserted by someone you like.

           This is the greatest pain i ever encountered in my entire life that comes from someone you never comprise.
My heart rages in its utmost height…

           My heart keeps bleeding because you lied..

           I was in my highest point of my emotion…i fell intensele from the highest altitude of love..it hurts me…it tortures me..it eradicates me..

           My life is really sufferable…the disadvantage of being ignored and not being recognized… not even given in whichever right..the right to ask…the right to dictate..

            I love you more than you will ever know and more than i could ever show, but i hope that one day you will realize that it is true…i love you more than you know…

            I want to fulfill something to prove that i love you so,i’m certain and sure what i’m tracking to…mainly my love that kills my my momentum everyday, i feel abandon..i feel astray..this might eliminate my consciousness including my awareness..

            My earnest apology for giving you so much worries and troubles, but why?…a BIG WHY?! why me?! why now?!

            I tried to spill out all my agonies and miseries but i fell short…im still suffering ..i’m still crying…I LOVE YOU..that’s the reason why.

-you know me-

I live without you


I live without you,
Still holding memories.
Beings a smile on my face,
At the same time about you it worries.

You told me not to look at your picture,
What do I do of the one in my heart?
Without you baby life is unclear
And I have no idea where to start.


Despite of things between us,
To you I still belong,
You lay in me like an incomplete prose
Of an incomplete song.

Every day I get up,
Your face I wish to look at,
Thoughts surround air around,
Still pleasant are those yet.

Time goes by,
Still I wonder what you are up to.
Part of me here and part missing,
To go on I have to.

Yet something holds me back,
No dear I want you really,
Just give me a chance baby,
I`l love you dearly.

RaIn Drops



            Lively flowers, brilliant colors, beaming rain drops and green leaves all are waiting to enchant you. Be delighted with wet Flowers brightly shining after rain.


        Ahaaa...

Smiling through the Storm

There was a little girl who walked to and from school every day.


One day, though the weather that morning was questionable and clouds were forming,
she set out on her daily trek to the elementary school.
As the afternoon progressed, the winds whipped up, along with thunder and lightning.
Her mother was concerned that her daughter would be frightened as she walked home from school and she herself feared that the electrical storm might harm her child.
Following the roar of thunder, lightning, like a flaming sword, was cutting through the sky.
Concerned, the mother quickly got into her car and drove along the route to her child’s school.
As she did so, she saw her little girl walking along,
but at each flash of lightning, the child would stop, look up and smile at the sky. Another and another flash of lightning followed and with each the little girl would look up at the streak of light and smile.
The mother pulled her car up beside the child, and she lowered the window and called to her, “What are you doing? Why do you keep stopping?”
The little girl answered, I am trying to look pretty! God keeps taking my picture.

A Rainy evening..

              
                 I was walking on a tar road in a cloudy day. I was alone and i don’t remember where I was going to exactly. Slightly cold wind was blowing against me. I noticed very less people were around. I heard chirping of birds and seen eastern end of sky was turning into red. A dry flower in air came floating towards me and glided near my chest. I tried to touch the flower but it slipped away narrowly. I disappointed and took a deep breathe. The cold air refreshed my soul. I felt more relax. I observed dark clouds covering the entire sky and I guessed it rains shortly. I began to walk slowly and even more slowly.

                   While I passing by a flowery Gulmohar tree, I noticed a girl in pink walking in my way. I couldn’t see her clearly as she was still far. At that time, wind blew fast for few seconds and so, flowers began to fall from trees. The girl was approaching me and I slow downed my walk once again. I saw many flowers were fallen on her. She took off flowers which fallen on her shoulder. As she approached even more, I tried to recognize her. Oh!! It’s she!! My classmate! I wondered and smiled. She too surprised opening her eyes wide and smiled back.

                   We stood opposite to each other on the empty road. I tried to speak something. But words were stuck on her thoughts. My vocabulary went empty. She spoke nothing but seemed waiting for my words. After a minute I asked – “how are you?”she replied - “good, and how you doing”. “fine” I said –“you walk daily in this way?”. She replied - “no, I don’t go for walk often, but sometimes” She glanced at the end of the road. Might be she thinking of walking to next cross. But I was thinking how if I ask her for a walk with me? It sounded crazy. But I told myself that this chance never comes again. In fact, all these things are new to me. I was almost dancing in mind because of joy. I scared to ask her. How if she reply - “no thanks, bye”? I really felt sick.

                    I thought maybe this is my first and last chance to impress a girl. I decided, I must say something now. Putting my entire dare together, I asked her -” shall we walk together?…for a minute??” She turned and looked at me. I froze. Within next two seconds, a beautiful smile appeared across her face. She replied – “why not? Still I’ve some more time to spend”. I didn’t believe this at first time. But sometimes things go well. This time my luck didn’t break me into pieces. I said yes and we BOTH started walking.

                     I could feel the perfume she used and a beauty has established in nature. As I was stepping with her, flowers were appeared more beautiful, and softened wind blew over me with an icy touch. Amazingly, rain has set as if it’s been waiting for this right moment. We ran to a Gulmohar tree for shelter. Who doesn’t fall in love if all this happen? Needless to say, something terrible was happened to me for the first time. Like tsunami, something was wiped out seashore of my heart. I scared to believe I was in love. I saw her face. She looked more beautiful than ever before. Her beautiful eyes were expecting something. I wished to hold her hand. My hands were shivering. I told her name softly. She said “yeah?” I didn’t reply. I held my breath. My hand moved towards her hand and I froze as I touched her hand!…

                      “Maga, wake up yar. See I already brushing my teeth”. My roommate shouted as he was pulling my hand .I opened my eyes heavily and looked him. He was holding a toothbrush in his hand. Damn it!!! I screamed – “what a damn bad dream!!!” I never thought of this kind of creepy scenes! The whole weird dream was about Love as in old hindi films.I simply walked into bathroom like nothing has happened:-p

                       A scary evening and a walk with a girl … eek!! If I have such an evening in real, I would have sleep deadly in my room instead going for a walk and meet a girl. Ha ha … really funny dream it was.The girl is my classmate. But I didn’t even see her more than two times and there’s no any sort of crush or something on her. I don’t remember how I know her name. But I wonder why should I have dreamt it when I don’t like all those stuffs?? . Whatever, but I enjoyed the dream ((blushing)). It was like a cute story. Like a teddy for a kid. I realized my heart was beating loudly even after I woke up. What the hell was that?? . I don’t know. See you
!


Kr!Shna Golla..

RaIn..



                Its pouring today, though the climate is good and feels romantic I sometimes feel that this rain has either brought happiness in some lives or brought  storm in someone elses…

                 hmm this depends on individuals, what mood they are in and what is their perception… But here I want to look upto this quote: “Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.”
                  I hope and pray that  this rain washes away all the obstacles that are in my way of happiness and success….

Thought of the day:

“God didn’t promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.”